confession
this past few months sobrang dami n ng nangyari…napakadami..it seems like years n ang lumipas…ang bilis ng pace ng buhay ko..pati moods ko, emotions ang billis magbago…ngaun, masaya, maya malungkot..pero, sa huli ang mahalaga, kasama ko sya…
in a short period of time, i never imagine to feel this deep emotion for someone..
i love him so much,..i cant imagine myself without him in my life..though, i should also imagine myself without him in my life…like i used to be…bcoz who knows what will happen tomorrow..
yes, before, i used to be alone,..but happy..happy bcoz i am in control of my self..i know what i want, what i feel,..i have a clear mind/thinking..
but now, iam obviously not in control of my self..the only clear thing that i want was to be loved by him..
sabi ko sa sarili ko noon, i will never let anyone hurt me, never allow my self to fall so deeply to anyone again…but look at me now, deeply inlove with him, and embracing the pain just to be with him…
you know what, for sure, hindi nya to mababasa…hahaha
but if you does read this,..e d nabasa mo, syempre…eheheh
Cris said,
August 16, 2009 @ 9:59 am
soo happy for you mam.. atleast you are together and you are facing problems while holding each others hands..
love is the craziest feeling i’ve ever felt. its like a drug to me.. nicotine is an example, i am pretty sure it is staining my lips and my teeth along with the tar.. i know it is also staining and burning my lungs. though, i still continue taking it in… just when i realized it may kill me, i decided not to take it anymore. but i know myself, i can’t live without it.. so i just embraced the painful fact the i will die while loving. and that is… i think the noblest thing that can do with my life.. dying while loving someone. ~~